Birthday Wishes 3

The third, and hopefully final installment of this series of posts relating to what I want as gift for my birthday.

So, I had made up my mind for the P90X video tapes. I told my parents, my mom said she would buy it for me when we came back from vacation to Mexico City. Okay, satisfaction, pretty happy. Nope. While we were in Mexico my dad had told me that they didn't really wanna use their credit card to buy the videos, and how about if they bought something else. Something, like a laptop. They thought I could use one, and somehow buying something that at it's cheapest is 4 times more expensive than the videos is more convenient. Okay, I'm not arguing. Turns out, I can't even choose what kind of computer I freaking want. I want a MacBook. I know, it's expensive. But I'm a Mac guy, I can't lie. But no, that was my dad's first condition about the laptop. No expensive Macs. Ugh. My dad wants to buy my brother's laptop, which technically is new, unopened and everything. But it's Windows! I hate Windows, I'm so used to Macs, and I just love the way they operate better. Ah, dang. I just want a MacBook. Isn't it supposed to birthday gift anyway? Aren't I allowed to choose?

Mexico

Hey, I'm back! Wow, I haven't posted in forever. Sometimes it even feels like don't want to anymore, but i'll keep doing it.

I finally came home from my trip to Mexico City on Thursday. It was amazing, I feel refreshed, culturally connected, and ready to take on the world with my new found pride in myself. It feels good. I celebrated my birthday there, I got a Chavo del 8 birthday cake, which I loved! It was awesome. That's all I can say. I miss everybody of course, I miss my abuelita, tío Toño, tía Sandra, primo Toñín, tía Lupe, tío Victor, sobrino Enrique, prima Claudia, primo César, honestly, I miss everyone. I can't wait to go back, it was awesome this time. This is the first time I've gone to Mexico City where I've been old enough to appreciate what it truly means. It was an amazing trip.

El Ángel at night, so freaking beast.

Busy Weeks

I'm leaving for Mexico City on wednesday, my birthday's the 23rd, I need to start my required summer reading. Shit, this summer's leaving faster than it took to get here. 

This summer's ending and I wish I had more time to do all the things I need to do. Exercise (tennis, jump rope, running, P90X, soccer, etc.), work, Kristina, friends, summer required reading, everything else. The summer's winding down, soon it's gonna be all about "back to school" and supplies, the hottest looks for the fall, how damn hard junior year's gonna be. It's seems overwhelming, but I'll make it somehow. I always do. First, I need to develop a consistent exercise routine, I need to make time to read all the books I have to read, make more time for Kristina (because I love her and she's my everything), find time for a job, get sexy, and go back to school. Dang, I better start getting anal about everything. Organization and scheduling are key. I'll start setting my alarms. Haha. I seriously need to. And soon enough I'll start having to adjust my sleeping habits for the return, man, this is seriously depressing me, I don't wanna think about school. OH CRAP! I also need  to switch out of AP European History and switch into ROTC. I need to find out how though. Better get proactive about it. I need to jot some numbers down and call the school and/or district offices tomorrow. 

"Aut Inveniam Viam Aut Faciam" - Hannibal. 

That's my creed, that what I should live by. And Kristina. I love you. 

Texan Roller Coaster Ride

Been a while hasn't it? Missed me? 

So, my girlfriend and I have had this same fight for the past few days. I feel like she takes her friend's side, well not really a "side" but more like goes to greater lengths to appease her. On saturday she wouldn't even just go see Brüno with me. Because her friend didn't want to. I couldn't watch a baseball game downstairs. She lets her friend smoke in the car when I clearly HATE it.

I know this is just a completely unorganized and random assortment of thoughts. Just kinda what's been on my mind these past couple of days. It just feels like I can't say anything to my girlfriend because she gets mad and starts victimizing herself because she thinks she's done nothing wrong. It's just, it feels like she doesn't try to understand my point of view, where I'm coming from. When I have to with her all the time. It's just quite frustrating. 

Response to "Birthday Wishes"

So, I think I've decided what I officially want for my birthday. 

I want the P90X series of workout videos. My friend Everett uses them and he says he's getting great results. I'm pretty excited, I've been losing weight lately, eating better and less. This video's just gonna make a completely sexy dude. Oh yeah. There is some additional equipment required with the P90X, but I'll buy it. Being fit and sexy is a hell of a lot better than DS I'll tell you that. 

P90X, BRING IT! 

Insomnia and Boredom

It's 1:40 AM and, I'm bored. 

Hmm. . . Not sleepy yet, but bored. I'm sick of watching the same crap on TV. Nothing good's on, only SportsCenter and Baseball Tonight on ESPN, Family Guy on Cartoon Network, Reno 911, and informercials. I wanna do something. Maybe I should spend the night at a friend's house later in the week. I can't at German's (best friend) because he has summer school. Nowhere else to go really. I could try Jared's house. I'll text him later and ask if he or I could spend the night. 

But then, there's that other problem. I'm scared of getting on my friend's nerves. You know? Maybe he doesn't wanna hang out, or spend the night at my house. Maybe he's just being polite to me by not saying anything. Times like these is when I wish people were straightforward. If people didn't like you, had nothing but bad things to say, and didn't wanna see you, I wish they would tell you, up front and to your face. You know? I wish everybody was like that. Well, Jared seemed like he wanted to hang out on the 4th when we went to go see the fireworks. I don't know. I'll talk to him tomorrow. Can't spend the night anywhere on friday or this weekend. Well, maybe this weekend. Can't friday night. Gonna hang out with Kristina and Ashley and I have a renewal of marital vows to attend at my church. Maybe saturday night, I'm going to church with the Daniel and Kurt anyway. Might as well right? I'll talk to my parents and I'll see what's up. Like I've previously stated, this is gearing up to be a great weekend. 

Rest of The Week

I'm really excited for the rest of this week and coming up weekend. Hope to God, it'll be awesome. I might hang out with friends (most likely Jared) during the week. This weekend, I'm going out with Kristina and Ashley (her/our friend). We're gonna be going to Sonic to get her an application for work, Hollywood (movie theatre), Toys R' Us (to buy a Wii Points card for Kristina), and Command Post Army Surplus store (for stuff for me). Later Kristina and I are going to vow renewal at my church. 10 years of happy marriage for Brother and Sister García. May the Lord bless you with many many more. Sunday I'm going to my friends' church. Daniel, Kurt, and Dominic. We're gonna hang afterwards, then I'll come home and spend it with my family. I'm excited! 

Couldn't find a picture of the shirt without some busty young woman wearing it. Haha, kinda looks like Kristina. 

Missed A Day

So, I missed a day. You'd think I'd have a lot to write about. But I really can't think. 

Today was an alright day. I hung out about the house, I went outside about midday to play soccer Little Robert, dang. Either I've completely lost my skills, or Little Robert's a beast now. The latter is most likely true. My mom had called me earlier, telling me that I had to work today. So, they came home, we had dinner, and I went upstairs and slept. They never woke me up to go to work. Oh well, I was kinda looking forward to making some money to be honest. I went to church today with my parents, it was supposed to be the special monthly "youth service". Though to be honest there aren't enough teenagers in general to really make anything happen. Much less dedicated ones. Haha. There's me, Edgar, Johnny, Crystal, Cecilia, Valerie, Viri, and Suzette. And the last three would be especially hard to get involved. We went to the bakery afterwards, bought groceries. I got some great snacks! Cheese Nips, Breyer's Yo Crunch yogurt, and we got large pizzas that you make in the oven. I feel really good about myself now, because I have more control over how much I eat now. Ah! How could I almost forget, Kristina came over in the morning, we spent time together. We watched the rain from my window, and got it on! Oh yes, it was good. Even though she forgot to bring me chocolate milk and my slice of cake. Oh well. 

You know, lately I've really been getting back into soccer. A game I played yesterday at the park with some friends and it just rekindled my love of the sport. Lately the only sports I've truly cared about are baseball (my favorite), football, and tennis. But now, I really want to play some soccer. It feels like old times when I spent all my time playing in the neighborhood with my friends. Ah, good old times. You know what else I need to do again? Skateboard! It's in my closet, I just haven't used it at all! I really should, more exercise. 

Rest in peace Farrah. 

Birthday Wishes

July 23rd, 1993 is the day of my birth, on a humble but beautiful island of the Texan coast. An island kissed by the sun, and caressed by the sea, battered by hurricanes, but embraced by the breeze. It's children are all friendly, happy people. This island is known by few outside of the immediate area. A popular vacation spot for tourist from all parts of mainland Texas, especially those who do not wish to drive too far. For the locals it's everyday life, and for the people who live on the immediate mainland (like myself), it's a day off. This island is, Galveston. 

I really don't know what to ask for my birthday. It's two weeks away, I know, to soon to think. But I want to! Well, I really don't know what to ask for. I'm torn. Should I ask for an iPod Touch, a Nintendo DSi, a Nintendo DS Lite, or clothing, or an Xbox 360. Now don't me wrong people, I'm not a materialistic man, but I do enjoy the comforts of certain luxuries from time to time. Honestly, I don't know. Should I just ask for nothing and see what happens? My parents will pretty much force into a decision anyway? I'm really leaning toward the Nintendo DSi and all, but is it the right choice? It's just something that's been bugging for a couple of days, I'd really like some input. 

Sunday is always FUNday

I love sunny, American sundays spent with your family and special someone. 

Today was exactly what my previous statement described. A sunny, hot, Texas sunday. I went to church with my family and Kristina. Later we went to Kemah and Saltgrass Steakhouse (my favorite restaurant). We came back home, got a little busy (if you catch my drift) and watched the telly. We went grocery shopping with my mom a little later, and Kristina and I went Sonic afterward. We stayed at home and then she left. It was a great day. 

I know that's a bit of a bare-bones description of the day's events. As I have have spoiled y'all with long rants and essays  about my day and certain things on my mind. I just don't feel it today. I'm not in that mood or mindset. I'm sure y'all know where I'm coming from with this. I'm  just not feeling it. It's weird, I'm hoping this little explanation will snowball into a longer essay about anything else on my mind, anything at all! But so far it's only working to some extent. Hopefully is this explanation will suffice for my readers. 

NEVER MIND! 

I have made a mental breakthrough, I have a broken my writer's block. 

Haven't you all noticed how sunday is always a great day! It's always sunny, always fun, and always spent with family and the people you love. Great weather, great people, good food, and some fun. It's insane. The weather can be inclement for days or weeks on end. But, every sunday everything seems to clear up. I have a feeling it's because sunday is the Lord's day. That's just me, or sunday is just so good or relaxing to me, I just see it that way. 

July 4th

July 4th, 1776: Our founding fathers declared independence from the tyrannical rule of Britain, we've been a beautiful, sovereign nation since. 

My family and I made fajitas today, we invited our pastor and his family over to eat. I went out with some of my best friends later on to see the fireworks show in Webster. But, do we really know why we're doing what we're doing? Have we forgotten the meaning of freedom and Independence Day? I say yes, I think we as a society generally see it as a chance for a get together, a BBQ, a party. Some say this is bad, but this observer says the opposite. This is what our founding fathers wanted, this is what every soldier has fought for. A country at peace, a generation of children that doesn't have to pay the cost of freedom. So yes, one could say that we have lost our mind, past, and identity, but I say that all the efforts and sacrifices of our forefathers have been successful. 

Steering away from philosophical conversation, I had quite a bit of fun today. My original plan was to go to my girlfriend's mother's family's house for their party. Her dad was being a little weird and uptight about the idea and didn't let me. Even though I provided a delicious cake!! So I stayed home, watched baseball and ate very good food my amazing mother cooked. Later on I went out with some great friends. Raveena, Jared, Kim, and her little brother Eugene whom I met that day. We had so much fun, so many laughs, I made quite a few great jokes! (When don't I though?) We saw a fireworks show in Webster, really cool. We had Lay's BBQ chips, and Twizzlers. Yeah, we got our grub on. After the show we went to a park in Kim's neighborhood and hung out there. On our way from the show to the park we pranked one of Raveena's and Kim's friends, telling her they were in jail and I was a perverted cell mate. Hilarious. Raveena wanted to go back home, her dad was being a little odd. Our night was unfortunately short. At least we had fun. Now I'm gearing up for another great day tomorrow. Church and spending it with Kristina and my family.

Pray

To anybody who follows this blog or who just randomly came across it: 

Pray for me, to become a better person. To be closer to God, to honor his commandments and law to the best of my ability. To be the best son, boyfriend, student, nephew, brother, uncle, friend, teammate, church member, teenager, man I can be. To be rid of my dumb temper, my "tantrums", unrealistic fears, and all other things that are flaws in my person. Please, and thank you. 

I know that was pretty RANDOM, but I felt it necessary to ask for that. I will be praying as well, of course. 

Unconditional Love

I didn't wanna leave it as is. 

I absolutely love my parents. My dad and my mom are the most important people to me. I know we may butt heads from time to time, with my mom especially. It just shows how much I am like her. We're both stubborn, we never back down, we're hotheads with short fuses. I wish I didn't have a temper, it would avoid some many problems with everybody. Parents, girlfriend, friends, teachers, etc. I wish I was more level-headed. Well, that's just the way God made me, and I'll get closer to him to rid me of it. The Lord gave me two PERFECT, LOVING, parents. I love them more than anything, and I feel like a jackass for taking them for granted at times. I'm blessed to have parents like them. I love them. And I will honor them to best of my ability. Thank you God for giving PERFECT parents like them. Thank you. 

Anger & Driving

My parents and I have been having the same fight for the past couple of months now.

It's about driving. I wanted to start driver's ed in January, but they thought 16 was too early for

someone to get their license. So they decided to compromise with me, and let me start driver's ed in April 2009. Baseball season got in the way so I had to wait. Now they're not letting me start driver's ed 'til the end of July, and I can't have a car 'til I turn 17. Which I pretty much have to buy. Now, hear me out guys. I know it doesn't sound that bad, but I kinda go to a a well-off, affluent school. And the frustration is that everyone around you has a car. People younger than you have cars, your friends have cars, everyone. And they're not just regular old used teenager starter cars. They're like new, top of the line, state of the art automobiles. And I think to myself. . . What do these kids do that I don't? We sure could afford a old, beat-up car. My parents just don't want to. It just doesn't feel good knowing that you're the loser still riding the bus and you have to see your friends all pull up to school in amazing vehicles. I'm a good kid, good student, great grades, good son, I don't get it anymore. I have a future, I'm involved in extra-curricular activities at school. I just don't know. Maybe it's the way my parents were raised, maybe it's just Latino parenting. 

On top of that, they're so angry sometimes. For no reason whatsoever. Freaking serious.

I get great grades, I actually behave, I'm home most of the time, I don't know. They have such a 

short fuse, it's hard to always keep them happy. I know millions people out there have it totally worse than me, but, it still sucks. I guess I just gotta go out of my way to not talk back, or annoy them. Ah. This is hard. Can't wait 'til I'm the Navy flying planes. Nobody can boss me around, tell not to speed, tell me I can't maneuver, tell me I'm not old enough to fly a beautiful aircraft, nobody can tell me what to do in the air, it's my plane and I. Power's in my hands, and it'll feel good.  

Ice Skating!

On a lighter note, to eliminate the depressing mood set by my previous post. 

I went ice skating for just about the second time ever today. The last time I went skating was when I was 8 at the Dallas galleria. It was a SUCCESS! I didn't fall and bust my ass! I went with the love of my life Kristina. I made two big mistakes. First, I wore shorts to the rink, damn. Secondly, my skates weren't tight enough around my ankles, which according to Kristina, makes a difference. It was really fun, amazing way to beat the heat! I met some kid who plays hockey, what a great skater! This poor little girl fell and started crying, I really wanted to do something, but I just didn't know. Well, she eventually got over it and even went back out! What a trooper. I had just a fantastic time with her. Don't really wanna do it anytime soon, it completely killed my feet. Ah! They hurt so bad. But fun nevertheless. 

Kinda like how we were out there. 

Hypochondria

What's wrong with me? 

I suffer from a condition called Hypochondria. Wikipedia defines this as: an excessive preoccupation or worry about having a serious illness. 

Cyberchondria: describes the behavior of hypochondriacs who use the Internet to gather information on health or healthcare.

This completely destroys my quality of life sometimes! I'm always scared any little ache or pain is some serious illness.

It's completely effing insane. My throat hurts, I freak. I get diarrhea, I panic. Stomach pain, anything. I'm terrified.

Mortified. I display all the typical behaviors. Panic, always looking up information, self-examination, closely scrutinizing my body for sign of illness. Even though I have no reason to be. Always scared of headaches, cause I start think it's a tumor. Don't like using my cellphone to talk because I'm scared of getting a brain tumor. I don't know what's wrong with me, I really need help with it. Like psychiatric help. I always pray to God and my Lord Jesus Christ for an end to the fear. I find peace, and then, any little thing, I'm mortified again. Ahh. . . I need to relax. I know I'm healthy. I've always been healthy. I try to eat right, exercise, I play baseball and tennis. I'm a teenager. Heck, even when I was like 9 I would freak out about me having a heart attack because my chest would hurt. I don't know, I just need to relax, know I'm okay and that I'm stressing myself out unnecessarily. Turn to God, and put ALL of my faith in him. I find peace in him, and that's all I need. Ah, I feel better. 

Exercise and Weight Loss

So, lately I've been trying to lose weight. I've hit all the bases, eating healthy, eating less, plenty of exercise. I've completely got the exercise part down. I play baseball, tennis with my school, I go cycling just about every day, and I'm about to start Capoeira (Brazilian martial art) classes. I just COMPLETELY SUCK with dieting. Makes me not know what to do anymore. It sucks! I keep trying, but I always fall back into overeating. Ahh. . . If I could somehow get rid of my natural teenage boy hunger. Hahaha. What can I say? I love food! Well, somehow, I'll find a way. I'm quite tall, and I keep growing, that always helps. We'll see, maybe I'll order the P90X videotapes my friends Everett always tells me about. They seem good, lose a lot of weight in 90 days. He says it works, I'll take his word for it. Any suggestions? 

Fixing Mistakes!

I've found a way to edit and delete my posts! Awesome!! :D 

TiempoDeMistakes

My first screw-up on my own blog. I posted "NOOB!" twice on accident. Ahh. . . Dang. How long is this learning period supposed to last? Is there a statute of limitations on how many times someone can mess up? Well, at least I'm learning from my mistakes right? 

TiempoDeNOOB!

I'm such a terrible blogger, lol. I totally fucked up on my first post on midnitedrive. Ahh. I bet Frankie considers it a mistake to have assigned me a position as a contributor. FUCK! Well, this is my first day as blogger, I'll get better. 

New Contributor for midnitedrive, THE BLOG!

So, now I'm contributing to "midnitedrive, THE BLOG!" I'm excited about it, Frankie's (guy who owns blog) one of my best friends, he is an awesome and really funny writer, and everybody else on there is really funny, and writes very well too. I hope I can be as good. Now my blogging journey truly begins. 

TiempoDeAprender

So, I'm new to this whole "write your thoughts" thing. Never had a "blog" before. It feels weird, I know nobody's really gonna see this, but I'll give it a shot. I was introduced to this by my friend Frankie, who has a blog of his own here. "midnitedrive, THE BLOG!" yeah, pretty nice, you should check it out. So I'll keep blogging, I'll get better at this. Write with grace and finesse, and make it a joy to read, ya verán . Keep reading, loving, and living guys. More like, guy. Since I'm probably the only person actually reading this. Hahaha.